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A NEW DAY HAS BEGUN.....

Well though the new has begun, so often; "I" must take that which has been spoken and turn into action/a prophetic act. So either just ignore this posting OR embrace it. For months now, I have been ever so aware of the sun's rising. Since it is in the season of it's later rising, most of the time 7:00 here at my house/home, I am so often sitting at my desk WHEN the SUN rises. Or maybe better yet, when the earth rotates so as the sun hits its lands, oceans, and territories.  BUT this morning as I sat at my desk, I wasn't just aware, but AWARE and stood up, faced east at 7:06 am. Within 90 seconds IT HAPPENED, the suns/SON'S rays hit me.  I was in awe, was elated beyond words......
THEN I heard those beautiful Red Crowned Parrots flying over too.  This was and is a  new day.
Oh and though we are about to have a new year here in the Roman Calendar, well The Hebraic new year already started (well that was what I was taught anyway): I have decided to make a list…

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AFTER DOING ALL STAND~~~

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Have you ever done, and Done, and DONE. You have done so much, there isn't anything else you can do.
These last few years, I have put the armor of God on each night before bedtime, as well as if and when I awake at night. This is what I discerned to do for the time I have been in.
Recently I have been hearing (in the spiritual realm), "after doing all stand".  As I was pondering, "Where/what chapter, what book of the Bible might this be in. Hah........ it is in the same verse of putting on the spiritual armor.  So this sweet little posting on Christmas Eve, is  Nicole........ you have done all, now STAND FIRM.  So...........
Ephesians 6 declares this:
Finally my brethren, be strong in the power of the Lord and the power of HIs might. Put on the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of darkness of this world, against…

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Oh YOU want 100% of my life LORD~~~

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This season, I have heard in several ways that GOD wants ALL of me. I have always known that but it has come front and center, and with how the last years have gone, with the battles, warfare, and though so much GOOD has happened with the deliverance of actual demons, (yes I have been a Christian over 30 years), there is still "stuff" that is still clinging onto me. 
A teaching that has come forth has been giving ALL of oneself to the Lord, not just a percentage.  SOOOO this last couple of weeks I have been thinking ALOT and finally today, put those thoughts into action.  I got out a case of my books and took them to church.  I shared with the proper person, what I wanted to do, and if I had permission.
Church started and we started singing. I got a couple of books out and signed them with a word of encouragement to the person(s) it was intended for.  Before long Tim (not his real name), got a book and before long, called me up and prayed for me.  Well one of the first per…

Quit thinking is such a negative way~~~~~~~~~~

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Well, so many of "us" complain, whine over negative items, be it our bills, housework, our family and it's issues, and ever so much more......
Over the last season, I have done the same thing, and have though healing has come into being, it took me over a year to realize I was actually delivered of some horrible *)@#!&(=.     God has so greatly blessed me, you, us, and most of the time we don't even acknowledge it.
I have the book "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne, and there are many declarations of tidbits of life, and breakthrough in it. I realize it is not scripture, but there are so many nuggets there.  ONE BEING: Visualize what your breakthrough is, visualize good, an example being, your cupboards full, and your body healthy.  Let me type the very statement off of page 81, by Dr. Denis Waitley

I took the visualization process from the Apollo program, and instituted it during the 1980's and 90's into t he Olympic program. It was called the Visual…

MY CHAINS ARE GONE!!

I KNOW this, that THAT which I have been battling with is OVER WITH! Healing is still in progress but ALL the Chains from that ISSUE are over. It's time to go and do once more. I quit doing ever so much, and have dwelt in "self this", and "self that", oh of course self pity too. I am to no longer gaze behind, though "stuff" still needs to be dealt with, you know like when you have been hurt, the surgery is over and now it's time to rehabilitate, and honestly, even that is almost done as well. My focus shall be with the present, with God, and whatsoever things are good. In this world, we so often focus on the bad and the ugly, and forget the good. So this day and it surely is cold as well as a dark time of year, for the shortest day is coming up, well THEN things in our lives will be getting brighter and brighter. REALLY! MY CHAINS ARE GONE!!

Chris Tomlin - Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger~~~

What doesn't kill you makes your stronger! And though I have heard that for years, it is nearly indescribable until you experience it. I had a HORRIBLE thanksgiving, BUT it took me 24 hours to realized, GOD allowed it, for HE KNEW I would make it through and not give up. I have been a blubbering mess ever since. This season, my emotions have escalated beyond fathomable depth/intensity. So as I heard this hymn this am, i melted again. Ready? IN CHRIST ALONE and don't just hear, sing, the words, but Declare and Proclaim them! The link below (Click to listen to the song and here are the Lyrics) Shalom In Christ alone my hope is found He is my light, my strength, my song This Cornerstone, this solid ground Firm through the fiercest drought and storm What heights of love, what depths of peace When fears are stilled, when strivings cease My Comforter, my All in All Here in the love of Christ I stand In Christ alone, who took on flesh Fullness of God in helpless babe This gi…

In Christ Alone - Adrienne Liesching and Geoff Moore (with lyrics)

Todd White Testimony

Letting God love you..............

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WOW, another WOW! Just going deeper with ABBA. I have never felt so good, and that is so interesting to me.... FOR the warfare this season has been tremendous in certain ways. Each of has different battles, and so often it is in areas that we as of yet don't have victory in yet: BUT WILL as we don't give up. Basically I am FEELING, EXPERIENCING everything from LOVE to fear. What I thought would be healing isn't for most of my life I have given, GIVEN. Be it a vase of flowers to a meal to others. This season I am FEELING, EXPERIENCING Love and though I have known the characteristics (from I Corinthians 13), of love, I now feel them and have accepted them. God is having me not give as much as receive. So whatever you haven't grasped, well may this be the season that you do grasp it, and receive it. Also I abhor waiting for most anything. As far back as I can remember, stuff has been promised to me, and though one will promise it to me (from birth parents, to acquaintan…

Today is/was nearly INDESCRIBABLE!!!

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I have been coming through such a season. One which has been gradual in my healing. God is ever so much more clever than us, and HE knew that my healing needed/needs to be slow, precise, thorough, and ever so much more than I can ever imagine. He made me with such anointing for His Creation, be it people, but ever so much our planet. There have been times of being blessed by the Red Crowned Parrots here in our County. They fly by the hundreds directly over my home even. They have sat on the wires above and eaten fruit. Lots of others special gifts HE has given, and they almost all have been that which is around me just COMING ALIVE. This week we have had a storm come through and dump some rain, and that was good. I had some errands to do today and upon getting home, got some dishes done and made some coffee. AND THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went outside to see if my cat needed some food and I was dumbfounded at what I felt and saw to the west. The sun was getting read to set and you could …

Who am I?

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Honestly, I don't even know where to start this post............. Well, let's start with the sunrise. As the sun rose, I reflected on the night which was a breakthrough for me, and this is why! For several years I have awoken several times nearly EVERY NIGHT. I rarely sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. So I tend to go to bed early 8am or before, and get up oh maybe at 6- 8 am. In bed for maybe 10-12 hours and get maybe 6 hours of sleep. Of course there were many a night it was only about 4 hours or so. Now I love (for whatever reason) to make lists. I love to check things of a list as well. Soooo, as I got out my bird field guide, I was looking up a bird and ran across the check off list I have used in the back and just pondered, browsed the list of winged beauty that I had gotten to see one or more times. SOOO, that led to getting out my diaries of the years past to see what birds I saw when visiting other states, and that led to finding the FIRST journal/diary I …

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How He Loves Us - Kim Walker / Jesus Culture

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I Made It To The Top and so can you...........

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Don't give up (like i have done many a time).............. Earlier today my son CHUCK RAMIREZ, told me he was going on his hike that he frequently goes on. I asked if he would drop me off at Mission Trails Regional Park, and come pick me up when he would be done with his hike. TO make a long story short, I went with Charles (my son), and started hiking up that mountain. It was hard, and i had to stop several times in the first 1/2 mile. By the time we got up to the 3/4 mile i had to stop and told Charles just to go on, and i would wait, and so he went up to the top of COWLES MOUNTAIN. After several minutes of standing still, I felt restored and chose to go another 100 feet or so. To again make this story shorter........... I kept my focus to the view directly in front of me. Before I knew it........ I MADE IT TO THE TOP!!!!! https://www.sandiego.gov/park-and-recreation/pdf/missiontrailstrailmap.pdf Those of you that know me, know most everything that happens to me, has more tha…

What color will you embrace this season??

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This last week has been intense spiritually, emotionally, and it has ended VICTORIOUSLY. I keep noticing the color "purple". I keep seeing items that are purple and they just have my attention. Now let's see if you can follow me. One's back yard; be it in one's dream or in real life "CAN" mean the past, and then the front yard can and does mean one's current situation in life. Most everything has a spiritual meaning to it. One will be positive and then there most likely will be a negative one too. The goal of this posting is to share HOW GOD can and does talk to you and you most likely have never noticed before. Well in these last 24 hours, I have been noticing purple flowers. This morning October 31, 2013, I heard a birds call and KNEW (99%), it was the Costa's Hummingbird. Then I thought, how can that be when it's now winter? So I got my field guide out AND learned they stay here in San Diego all year long. WOW!! So I went outside to wat…

Chris Tomlin - How Great It Our God & How Great Thou Art [LIVE]

Taking Communion in a new way..........

Taking Communion in a proper way. I have taken communion "most" of my life. And I have taken it in church mostly as well. In the last few years I have learned I can do communion in my own home, and of course in church. What I have learned is one must have the correct heart, a good humble spirit, for if one takes communion (I learned in these last few years), in an un~proper manner, be it unclean or the like, you can get illness, disease, even be cursed. Here is 1 CORINTHIANS 11:27-30 27 Wherefore whosoever shall eat this bread, and drink this cup of the Lord, unworthily, shall be guilty of the body and blood of the Lord. 28 But let a man examine himself, and so let him eat of that bread, and drink of that cup. 29 For he that eateth and drinketh unworthily, eateth and drinketh damnation to himself, not discerning the Lord's body. 30 For this cause many are weak and sickly among you, and many sleep. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~…
Many of us, most "all" of us want to recieve, as well as give love to and from others. We "believe" that we have recieved, as well as given love. I have cared for others in the health field, as well as doing for others in employment even. From being a cashier, to being a maid, I have enjoyed doing for others. Being a Certified Nurse Assistant, caring for others when they are ill, even to the last season before they pass away, it has been fulfilling to me to care for others. This season we have come into, so many are facing that which they havent seen, felt or even recognized before. Seeing truth(s) they havent discerned or seen before. May I??? My "truth(s) are the fact that I dont know what having a dad/daughter relationship is like, except the ugly side of it. In my case the only recognition in this relationship was ugly, getting ugly discipline. As an infant being abandoned both by my dad and mom. Then being adopted, mostly only getting attention when it c…

What Have you neglected in your walk?

What have you neglected in your walk? To everything there is a season and this season I believe we need to focus on what indeed GOD is speaking to us in regards to what needs attention to be purged in our life as well as what to water in our lives. I was saved as a teenager, and now i am over 50 years of age. I spent over 20 years studing the Word of God, using my Strongs Concordance; filled notebooks full of those studies. I went to Precept Courses to study, study, and study. About 10 years ago i left the church/faith i was in; (after about 20 years of stedfast attendance). I wanted more of God and I just couldnt find it in this church or faith. I started going to a penecostal church and after several years i was hit with something horrible. Let me share this now; I am adopted and found my birth dad during this season as well. What God was doing (i didnt know it then) was bringing up *^$*# from the past and with the help of my husband cast out demons that had been in me since w…
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Bill Yount: Standing In Hard Times

Bill Yount: Standing In Hard Times: A woman kept standing for the healing of her husband who suffered a stroke, leaving a third of his brain dead. The doctor said to her, &qu...
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The Tortoise and the Hare~~~
  Greetings this day and blessings to you!  Many of us have pets, from goldfish to horses.....
Me? I have had a cats for most of my life and this one is over 15 years of age, blind in one eye, and now on mostly canned food, because of his age and teeth. Several years ago, i was given a tortoise, A California desert tortoise. Beverly was its owner and the name of the tortoise was Henry. She had it for over 20 years.  Most desert tortoise can live upwards of 50 years. I have now had this tortoise about 7-8 years. This summer (2013) a squirrel kicked her out of her burrough by harassment. She then buried herself in another part of our backyard. A couple of days ago, she aroused herself and ate some meals that i set before her. Well yesterday, our neighbor had found a rabbit in their yard and by nightfall this rabbit was in our front yard. We decided to put this rabbit in our backyard and she is now dining on all kinds of stuff. So i laugh, am taken in by how Go…

Jars of Clay -- This Road -- City on a Hill

MY TESTIMONY/TRIBUTE

My name is Nicole and my daddy named me; my birth dad. I am adopted and my birth parents abandoned me.  I was raised well especially by my mom, and didn’t learn that until after she passed away.
I have been saved since 1977, and that is a result of Billy Graham, and of course the Holy Spirit.  I got married to my high school sweetheart and now it is over 30 years of marriage. I found my birth dad, though I was looking for my birth mom. 
What I have learned is this, I was looking for something, maybe acceptance, for I have had the fear of rejection, as well as the spirit of abandonment and had to come face to face with them for a victory, and to have that, once must accept the truth and for me , my breakthrough of my life is to let LOVE, penetrate me, every cell of this body. My adopted mom loved me, my husband loves me, and who know who else loves me OH YEAH, of course God does.  While in high school I took the classes I needed and found out I still need a couple of more so after…

CECE WINANS - ALABASTER BOX (LIVE)

Alabaster Box by Cece Winans

Lauryn Hills & CeCe Winans - His eye is on the sparrow

THE VOICE OF THE LORD~~~

Doing my devotions one day, (before retiring)  I came across Psalm 29.  Of course most of us have read it before, even several times. But so often we only grasp stuff in the shallow end of the pool. Yesterday i read this and ended my day with this Blessed Psalm. I went to bed and the night was strange.  I won't nor need to go into detail, and then upon awakening (after several during the night), I was still burdened as I awoke and upon opening my Bible, I opened again to that very Psalm.  I pray that I grasp, soak in it, digest it, understand it and walk in this awesome Psalm. Here is it and I would so enjoy learning your nugget of the season or hour. Shalom

PSALM 29   A Psalm of David Ascribe to the LORD, O sons of the mighty, Ascribe to the LORD glory and strength.  Ascribe to the LORD the glory due His name; Worship the LORD in Holy Array.
The voice of the LORD is upon the waters; The God of glory thunders, The LORD is over many waters. The voice of the LORD is powerful,  The v…

I am free and flying

Many of you don't know me, and those who do,  WILL CERTAINLY probably laugh at this posting.... Ready?   Here it is......
This is going to be a long posting too.
These last few weeks, I have been overcome, saturated with the word Shalom. I know what it means, but it means more than i realized. That is number one.  Number two is I enjoy, love Glory of Zion with Chuck Pierce established in Texas, and watch it whenever I can.  This month I was more than wanting to watch the conference, but HAD to, there was something I HAD to grasp, hold on to, and not let go of. It was a wonderful, awesome conference. I did miss two of the gathering though, and GOZ, posted them the next week (free of charge).  I knew the one i was drawn to the most and watched it.  WOW!  I have always know about the feasts in the old testament, the holidays etc, but never learned much about them, let alone celebrate them. I watched Robert Heidler the teacher of those holidays, and the Day of Atonement (Yom Kippur) …

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JUST THINKING........................................

My husband is doing a job and had to park in a lot where he usually does not. Now that this job has started, i guess he just may park there more often. Hmmmmm...........   Anyway let's get to the subject matter that has greatly blessed me. He was walking to his truck and saw something on the top of the cab. As he got closer, he could see movement, and as he shared the story with me on the phone (during lunch i think), he described it from a distance and it looked like a small penguin. LOL~~  He continued walking and upon getting closer could tell it was a type of  jay. Now most know i am into birds, bugs, and other creation/life.  He called me asap, and told me this, and I was ever so moved, for though this new job started, and it's a little bit further away, the LORD blessed both my husband and I with a BIRD.  I love them winged creatures, feed the songbirds with seed in the backyard, also feed the jays, with peanuts. The b…

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What is "IT" that the LORD IS trying/attempt to have overcome you?  What is "IT" that you haven't let HIM do? What is "IT" that is probably right in front of you, and you don't even realize "IT" is there?               Deep breath.......
As christian's we know/realize alot, but do we experience,encounter and let "IT" and us be so one, that you can't separate the two.
So it "IT" forgiving yourself and/or others?  Does forgiveness need to overcome you like a wave, maybe even a Tsunami?  Or how about anger?  When one forgives so often anger goes out as the wave does.
Maybe you are a forgiving person, but you have walls up and won't let the Lord, let alone others love you! So often in both these areas (and many more) we actually lie to ourselves (thinking it is the truth), but we rely on our own understanding, instead of trusting God and His love for us.
So now let me humble myself and get all gooey (in front…

Favorites Songs that I love.

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Henrietta Maye . . . .

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Well ladies and gentlemen:
There are those who have never known nor met me. Then there are those of you that are acquainted with me  somewhat. There are those of you who are friends, AND THEN there are those who have stayed in my life through it all.  Some of you know (not many), that i have an unusual pet; a California Desert Tortoise. I acquired her several years back from a reliable source. As soon as i acquired her, I joined CDT of San Diego so as to find out, what to feed her, what not to feed her. I made sure i planted some good flowers for her and made sure as well to get rid off all the ugh/fatal plants, so as to have tortoise friendly yard. LOL~~
Years have passed and she nestled into a spot in the yard seasonally. Each autumn, late towards winter here in southern California, she would go into her hibernation. I would then bring her into the house and tuck her into a box, wrapped in some old clean cloths. Winter would pass and Spring would arrive, and i would hear her move so…

Don't give up!

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Here in San Diego we have ever so many Red Crowned Parrots! Many years ago, it has been communicated that wild parrots were brought up from their homeland, from where they were born. At that time it was alright to bring these birds, and now it is banned. So has any of you been taken from where you originated, where you began, and taken, stolen, abandoned, or _________, and then over the years, are in a completely different place, than where you started out at, and honestly you didn't move, you were moved.  But you know what, YOU, yes YOU, have persevered, but one thing "we" must do, is quit staring at the past. It is ok, to be aware of, glance back, but "we" need to quit staring at the past. 
Yesterday i was watering our front yard, and heard the familiar sound of those parrots, and such joy came all over me. I kept thinking that once they lived in their native land, (Central America), and was captured, brought up here and caged. But somehow they got free, they …

JUMPING IN FOR REAL

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I posted last time about jumping back into life or as it has been spoken back into the Spiritual River!   So in some ways i most certainly have, and i believe I have been in the 2 foot section of the river, NOW this weekend, it is going to be somewhat deeper. I have signed up to go the Fraternal Order of Eagles fair. I will set up my tent and offer my photography, book and other arts! Haven't done this for years and I am putting the past behind me and God knows what i mean by this. We don't ignore our entire past, but we don't FOCUS on it, and being a photographer, I can and do focus on items i shouldn't.  This is a short but to the point posting ladies and gentlemen~  

Jumping back in~~

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It  has been over a year, nearly two since i actively used my camera. Since i don't drive, I am basically stuck at home and recently acquired a bike and need to get a basket or backpack so as to be able to take snacks, camera and my binoculars OUT THERE.  I used to go to nearby parks, sanctuaries, and other nature places, weekly, and had such a wonderful time with God alone. I probably have over 10,000 images/pictures in my external hard drive and/or computer from the last almost 10 years of travel; instate and out of state.  Those who know me, also know i have a self-published book and sell my photography here in San Diego and online. For nearly my entire life i have went, gone, traveled short and long distances to do what I like, and here in the last few years have been pretty restricted to home and mostly i garden and clean the house. I still get out "there" as I can get rides.  So in this last week, I truly discern I have and will get back out "there" be it…

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I just went back and read my previous postings and I am so aware of the fact that the Lord is so pleased with me. Most of us would never admit this openly for we are so hard on ourselves, and that is because so often, either our parents or those teachers, etc have been hard and/or critical on us.  The time i shared of in May of not sleeping well, and just tired, and nauseated, well that is over. Then i discerned it was time to start a fast of two weeks. IKE'S, no coffee, and no facebook, oh my gosh!!!  Then i again discerned, what is more important to you Nicole, freedom or crutches, hobbies etc?  So the fast began. I have never been on such a unique fast. I need to stop and share, one thing that is pretty strong in me, is the fact i do hear the Lord / Holy Spirit daily. Not audibly, just discernment.  I have had some awesome dreams too, revelational dreams too.  So the fast begun and my diet changed, but what also shifted was I was aware of what "things" I could do, or …

Another battle another Victory

Be still and know that I am God, Nicole.
It is hard to realize that "not" doing much of anything is warfare. Well i love birds and with most animals you feel/see movement in the bushes and know something is in there. BUT if something is very still they can sit there forever and you will never know they are behind those leaves/foliage.
I have share a little, and most that have been friends with me over the years have basically just dissolved, and I have not seen some for years. Most don't know how to deal with a wonderful woman who can "blank out" at most any moment.
About 10 days ago around the 10th of May, i contacted SOZO (here is their website) http://bethelsozo.com/california
I gave them my email and within 24 hours i had an application, and since they only minister 2 nights out of 7, it was explained there is a waiting list. I anticipate getting in before the end of June.  Also this church that ministers SOZO, is within 30 miles of my home. I was sorta gru…

Tis been an active week...........

Sooooooooooooooo, MUCH has been happening. I rarely get sick and think the last time when any significant infirmity hit was over 10 years ago. I started feeling something not good last Wednesday which was May 8th. Today its' May 13th.  On a scale of 1-10 with pain, it got to nearly 20 over the weekend. The nausea was atrocious as well, but have felt worse there. Anyway this isn't the focus of the posting. As many know I am in the season of WHAT NOW LORD? In regards to healing and breakthrough. So i decided to go through dreams, and found one from my first born son who lives at home and blesses us greatly. We have 3 sons, 2 of which are in the military. This is the dream that I shall share.....
Chucks dream

Had a dream that we went to Antarctica to find some hidden city underneath it. We went on some crazy expedition underneath the ice in these caves looking for stuff. When we got to the surface it was 70 degrees and warm, I asked why it was so warm if this was Antarctica, you …

Sharing some deeper than normal items.......

Well, may I shift things here for a moment, hour, and/or chapter?
These last few days/hours have been ever so full of that which I have a hard time dealing with.
I have shared "some" of course not all, and to do so would be nearly impossible in one sitting, and then, there would be nothing left for next time.
DEEP BREATH~~~
Many know in part/a fraction of what i have dealt with. From adoption, to being abandoned by my parents. And then after my adopted parents (which get credit for they raised me for being my true parents), passed away, i went to find my birth mom, and then found my birth dad instead. This happened for all my life, it was explained to me that:
1.  I was adopted
2.  There was an article in the newspaper about me. (i didn't know the details).

After getting that article, i drove to the address in the article, parked, and knocked on the door. Of course no one lived there that knew me, and of course I didn't know them either.
As i sat in my vehicle my pho…

A time to laugh, a time to cry............

This new season for me has refreshed God's word in me. For years (yes years), i basically didn't read much, of course no studying the Bible. But as 2012 came to a close and 2013 was born, i actually hungered for God's Word. I have a Strong's Concordance, an Inductive study bible and many spiral notebooks of mine FULL of studies i have done. Word studies, topic studies, but as i left the evangelical church after 20+ years, and went to the "spirit filled church" i negatively, and nearly abandoned the bible. I got baptized in Holy Spirit, spoke, prayed in tongues, started falling down, and did learn a-lot, but as you can discern and tell, what a silly choice. So as 2013 came to be, I started reading and yes, it was so refreshing.  In February,  I started to read in Joshua. On the fourth day of my new journey, I opened the word to II Samuel and my eyes fell (not out of their sockets, of course), but I saw so clearly, and KNEW I was to read and declare this  verse…

How can I begin?

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I have so much going through my brain, soul, and have had to just slow down, be still and not only KNOW HE IS GOD, but actually stopping, yes just for over an hour, but i actually fell asleep. I KNOW that needs  to be done more often. I nearly abhor slowing down, but every time i do, GOD IS THERE.  So openly, i am sorry, i repent for it.  I don't discern God's anger, actually I discern, His pleasure in me, and that I am trying, that I haven't given up. HE knows, KNOWS, my heart. He knows the way I take, and when as an artist I have posted where showing my work (photography, paintings, book, greeting cards), I have typed, spoken, MY name is Nicole and my daddy, DADDY GOD, named me.  Nicole mean victory, victorious one.....  I am over 50 years of age, and growing up NICOLE was no one else's name. I was the only Nicole for nearly 30 years of this earthly life of mine, that i ever heard of. I found out by christian's, and non-christian's both that Nicole means Vict…