WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?

When I awoke this morning, I was an emotional mess.  I have had some tremendous breakthroughs, then what seem to be horrible setbacks.  I have fasted, prayed, and more to be free of such evil spirits, and curses. The I slept enough hours,  yet didn't feel as I should.  So I do know, I am to wait, and trust.  THEN I REMEMBERED JESUS, said these very same words.  So I got my bible out, and when to the gospel of Mark. the 15th chapter and read about the Crucifixion...........          At the 6th hour, darkness came over the whole land, until the 9th hour. At the 9th hour, Jesus cried out with a loud voice: "ELOI, ELOI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?" Which is interpreted: " My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?  I got my Strongs Concordance out and looked up what forsaken means in hebrew. It is #5800:  to loosen, relinquish, permit.
Yes I was feeling abandoned, and forsaken as well.  I went out for a walk this am, and saw some birds, and was ever so happy then.  Got back from that field trip, and still felt abandoned.  Got onto social media, and was real with some friends, and learned that the discernment I am having is causing me to feel the evil that I would rather not feel, from fear, to pain, to abandonment and more.  Many don't understand me, and I am learning now about how God has gifted me, and learning how to take authority over those evil spirits.