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Introducing Nicole Ramirez
Hello my name is Nicole and it mean victory of the people, victorious one, and it origin is from Greece.
I am a photographer, author, as well as an artist. This is my first posting here in my blog, and over the next season, i will share from several different subjects so as to encourage you.  One goal I have and intend to accomplish is to share the trials, traumas, and just hard times that i have come through, that i made it this far and you can too.
So, let me start with as i said above....  My name is Nicole. I am adopted and found out as i was raised by my adoptive parents, that my name was given to my by my biological dad. I was born in the 50's, and even though now in the 21st century, when i was growing up there was not one other Nicole i even met, heard of, be it in my life or on television. I never heard the name Nicole anywhere at all.
I was raised by Mr & Mrs Stickler, my adoptive parents, and they adopted another kid, this time a boy, and now i had a brother. We moved ever so much and so i never really got established in a neighborhood, all but for once. 
My dad acquired cancer and died of it when i was 11. We moved back to Pennsylvania, so he could say goodbye to his blood family before he died. After his death we came back to California, and settled in
San Diego County, the home of my moms sister.  We settled in an rural area of the Eastern County, and we stayed in one place, and it was nice to go to one school my entire high school years.
Of course i saw some cute looking guys, and sorta would follow them around. Another guy became aware of me, especially as i started to go to sports events to take pictures. I decided to take photography, for i needed credits to graduate, and that seemed different and maybe fun.  By the end of my junior year, i started dating this guy who was watching me. He graduated that year and 2 years later i then graduated.  He then moved and got his own apartment and i invited myself to move in. Within several months a very good friend of mine, had a dream, and because of the dream, she begged me to watch Billy Graham crusade that weekend on the t.v. (i had gone to his crusades growing up, and watched his crusades lots of times).  So the weekend came and it was December of 1977. I watched the crusade and ended up curled up on the floor crying at the end when the invitation to accept Christ was given. Well that very night, i couldn't go to bed with my boyfriend, i just KNEW it was not good anymore. So i slept in the walk in closet. Within the next week, i moved home with my mom. (she now only had a one bedroom apartment, and my brother had left home).  Within several months my boyfriend whose name was Charles, well he came to invite me out on a date once again, and shared with me he was saved now.  Within 5 months i was engaged, and we got married in June 1979.
I got pregnant nearly immediately and had a son in June of 1980 and named him charles as well. I now called my husband Charlie. The next 20 years were basically 2 more kids, who were boys, and several apartments too.
In 2002 my mom died, and within a year i started looking for my birth mom.  It was (I think) in 2005 that i found my birth dad. I found him for i had always known we had the new paper article in which it was shared the details of my situation..........
Details will be given in the next posting on my blog...........

Thursday, August 29, 2013

What is "IT" that the LORD IS trying/attempt to have overcome you?  What is "IT" that you haven't let HIM do? What is "IT" that is probably right in front of you, and you don't even realize "IT" is there?               Deep breath.......
As christian's we know/realize alot, but do we experience,encounter and let "IT" and us be so one, that you can't separate the two.
So it "IT" forgiving yourself and/or others?  Does forgiveness need to overcome you like a wave, maybe even a Tsunami?  Or how about anger?  When one forgives so often anger goes out as the wave does.
Maybe you are a forgiving person, but you have walls up and won't let the Lord, let alone others love you! So often in both these areas (and many more) we actually lie to ourselves (thinking it is the truth), but we rely on our own understanding, instead of trusting God and His love for us.
So now let me humble myself and get all gooey (in front of you (ahhhh)).   SIGH..........     (and there isn't even anyone in front of me either, maybe one day this testimony will be though) DID I say that???        

OK.........  As i gave God my life, and He has done ever so much healing and deliverance from demonic activity and residence, from curse being broken and restoration/recovery as well as coming into a wholeness that I have never experienced. I actually FEEL emotions now. I never have like this and it is good, but can be ever so exhausting too.
Things have happened in the last few years that I can't work outside my home.  My first born son moved home as our economy has declined and that most certainly was and is a blessing.  More stuff happened and instead of having all 3 of us working from our home, now there is only 1 substantial wage earner.    Even more stuff has come into our lives that needs cash to persevere/keep going and so as a mom, I asked our kids for some help. (HUMBLING beyond words). So today when FED-EX came by and I signed for a item, i was wondering what i might be. Was it for me, my husband, one of my sons?  Since our first born is named after his dad, i still wasn't sure.  It took about a minute and then i realized it was for our first born son, and it took a little longer and I saw the sender. OH MY GOSH!  I realized it was our sons $, maybe his retirement........
I have been crying off and on ever since, for he did it for us, and our kids truly care, and I haven't ever felt the emotions of this season before. I guess I have been numb most of my life.  I realize the healing is from the childhood trauma, the curses, the witchcraft, and just the simple fact of Love is doing a remarkable, intense, nearly unfathomable healing in me.  Brothers, Sisters, Aunts, Uncles, and all other family members on this planet,  in this "TIME" we are living in, what is "IT" that God, Your creator IS restoring, that was stolen from you years ago!  I declare that you will see, acknowledge so as to let wholeness/recovery be 100% this season in you.
JOB 14:7-9
7 For a tree there is always hope. Chop it down and it still has a chance - its roots can put out fresh sprouts. 8 Even if its roots are old and gnarled, its stump long dormant, 9 At the first whiff of water it comes to life, buds and grows like a sapling. 

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