- Introducing Nicole RamirezHello my name is Nicole and it mean victory of the people, victorious one, and it origin is from Greece.
I am a photographer, author, as well as an artist. This is my first posting here in my blog, and over the next season, i will share from several different subjects so as to encourage you. One goal I have and intend to accomplish is to share the trials, traumas, and just hard times that i have come through, that i made it this far and you can too.
So, let me start with as i said above.... My name is Nicole. I am adopted and found out as i was raised by my adoptive parents, that my name was given to my by my biological dad. I was born in the 50's, and even though now in the 21st century, when i was growing up there was not one other Nicole i even met, heard of, be it in my life or on television. I never heard the name Nicole anywhere at all.
I was raised by Mr & Mrs Stickler, my adoptive parents, and they adopted another kid, this time a boy, and now i had a brother. We moved ever so much and so i never really got established in a neighborhood, all but for once.
My dad acquired cancer and died of it when i was 11. We moved back to Pennsylvania, so he could say goodbye to his blood family before he died. After his death we came back to California, and settled in
San Diego County, the home of my moms sister. We settled in an rural area of the Eastern County, and we stayed in one place, and it was nice to go to one school my entire high school years.
Of course i saw some cute looking guys, and sorta would follow them around. Another guy became aware of me, especially as i started to go to sports events to take pictures. I decided to take photography, for i needed credits to graduate, and that seemed different and maybe fun. By the end of my junior year, i started dating this guy who was watching me. He graduated that year and 2 years later i then graduated. He then moved and got his own apartment and i invited myself to move in. Within several months a very good friend of mine, had a dream, and because of the dream, she begged me to watch Billy Graham crusade that weekend on the t.v. (i had gone to his crusades growing up, and watched his crusades lots of times). So the weekend came and it was December of 1977. I watched the crusade and ended up curled up on the floor crying at the end when the invitation to accept Christ was given. Well that very night, i couldn't go to bed with my boyfriend, i just KNEW it was not good anymore. So i slept in the walk in closet. Within the next week, i moved home with my mom. (she now only had a one bedroom apartment, and my brother had left home). Within several months my boyfriend whose name was Charles, well he came to invite me out on a date once again, and shared with me he was saved now. Within 5 months i was engaged, and we got married in June 1979.
I got pregnant nearly immediately and had a son in June of 1980 and named him charles as well. I now called my husband Charlie. The next 20 years were basically 2 more kids, who were boys, and several apartments too.
In 2002 my mom died, and within a year i started looking for my birth mom. It was (I think) in 2005 that i found my birth dad. I found him for i had always known we had the new paper article in which it was shared the details of my situation..........
Details will be given in the next posting on my blog...........
Saturday, November 30, 2013
What doesn't kill you makes your stronger! And though I have heard that for years, it is nearly indescribable until you experience it. I had a HORRIBLE thanksgiving, BUT it took me 24 hours to realized, GOD allowed it, for HE KNEW I would make it through and not give up. I have been a blubbering mess ever since. This season, my emotions have escalated beyond fathomable depth/intensity. So as I heard this hymn this am, i melted again. Ready? IN CHRIST ALONE and don't just hear, sing, the words, but Declare and Proclaim them! The link below (Click to listen to the song and here are the Lyrics) Shalom In Christ alone my hope is found He is my light, my strength, my song This Cornerstone, this solid ground Firm through the fiercest drought and storm What heights of love, what depths of peace When fears are stilled, when strivings cease My Comforter, my All in All Here in the love of Christ I stand In Christ alone, who took on flesh Fullness of God in helpless babe This gift of love and righteousness Scorned by the ones He came to save 'Till on that cross as Jesus died The wrath of God was satisfied For every sin on Him was laid Here in the death of Christ I live There in the ground His body lay Light of the world by darkness slain Then bursting forth in glorious Day Up from the grave He rose again And as He stands in victory Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me For I am His and He is mine Bought with the precious blood of Christ No guilt in life, no fear in death This is the power of Christ in me From life's first cry to final breath Jesus commands my destiny No power of hell, no scheme of man Can ever pluck me from His hand 'Till He returns or calls me home Here in the power of Christ I'll stand
Sunday, November 24, 2013
WOW, another WOW! Just going deeper with ABBA. I have never felt so good, and that is so interesting to me.... FOR the warfare this season has been tremendous in certain ways. Each of has different battles, and so often it is in areas that we as of yet don't have victory in yet: BUT WILL as we don't give up. Basically I am FEELING, EXPERIENCING everything from LOVE to fear. What I thought would be healing isn't for most of my life I have given, GIVEN. Be it a vase of flowers to a meal to others. This season I am FEELING, EXPERIENCING Love and though I have known the characteristics (from I Corinthians 13), of love, I now feel them and have accepted them. God is having me not give as much as receive. So whatever you haven't grasped, well may this be the season that you do grasp it, and receive it. Also I abhor waiting for most anything. As far back as I can remember, stuff has been promised to me, and though one will promise it to me (from birth parents, to acquaintances, family members, employees etc); well words have never met much to me. God created by speaking it into existence. SO many of us speak it, and it comes to pass. May we pay attention to those words we speak. Last week I said, "that was smart Nicole", which was negative and I knew by the Holy Spirit, that saying that was not good and even based by a spirit of negativity. So I prayed against that spirit, and now am being aware of what I say and careful what I say. WOW, if we would be aware of what we say, we could have much less illness and so much more ugh! In closing, ask the Lord (and get a pencil and paper ready to write down what comes into you brain), Lord show me to focus on whatsoever things are pure (philippians 4:8). We will walk and live in such a better place when we do this.... SHALOM
Thursday, November 21, 2013
I have been coming through such a season. One which has been gradual in my healing. God is ever so much more clever than us, and HE knew that my healing needed/needs to be slow, precise, thorough, and ever so much more than I can ever imagine. He made me with such anointing for His Creation, be it people, but ever so much our planet. There have been times of being blessed by the Red Crowned Parrots here in our County. They fly by the hundreds directly over my home even. They have sat on the wires above and eaten fruit. Lots of others special gifts HE has given, and they almost all have been that which is around me just COMING ALIVE. This week we have had a storm come through and dump some rain, and that was good. I had some errands to do today and upon getting home, got some dishes done and made some coffee. AND THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went outside to see if my cat needed some food and I was dumbfounded at what I felt and saw to the west. The sun was getting read to set and you could see the beauty of the brightness of it. I knew the storm was over. Be it spiritual or physical. (of course there will more storms, but the current one is over). The clouds were beginning to part. I was delighted, so I shared on Facebook, what I saw and felt. Well I HAD to outside again and watch it, and this time took my camera. I climbed upon my makeshift ladder and got a couple of pictures and was doubly delighted in what I was experiencing. The clouds like a blanket was coming east and the sky was sooooooo blue. Then I noticed over my pergola, a beautiful blue morning glory in full bloom! So I got some wonderful images. I came back in the house and uploaded the pictures. Well I went outside AGAIN, and was totally blown away for what I NOW SAW. I felt like I was in heaven (I can only imagine). I got some more pictures and upon looking to the east it was nearly black with storm clouds, but the west was totally cloudless. I kept hearing the song by Kim Walker HOW HE LOVES US and was singing it, not realizing that the Holy Spirit was singing it, or well I just knew God was ministering that song all over, in, and through me. I then took MORE pictures and then felt/knew/discerned to be quiet and just watch/listen. So I did for several minutes and then I heard TAPS. You know the song about when someone dies. I stayed there for several more minutes........... Finally came in for the color was gone out of the sky. I share this link, for I went and learned the History of Taps.
Monday, November 18, 2013
Honestly, I don't even know where to start this post............. Well, let's start with the sunrise. As the sun rose, I reflected on the night which was a breakthrough for me, and this is why! For several years I have awoken several times nearly EVERY NIGHT. I rarely sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. So I tend to go to bed early 8am or before, and get up oh maybe at 6- 8 am. In bed for maybe 10-12 hours and get maybe 6 hours of sleep. Of course there were many a night it was only about 4 hours or so. Now I love (for whatever reason) to make lists. I love to check things of a list as well. Soooo, as I got out my bird field guide, I was looking up a bird and ran across the check off list I have used in the back and just pondered, browsed the list of winged beauty that I had gotten to see one or more times. SOOO, that led to getting out my diaries of the years past to see what birds I saw when visiting other states, and that led to finding the FIRST journal/diary I started back in 1977 when I got saved. I started reading and saw the NICOLE (Nikki) back then. I read how much I loved my mom. Honestly in these last years, I keep reflecting on how much I didn't love her. So now am in a quandary. Yes I really did love her, but yes, could have done better at showing it. I have nearly 2 dozen journals and anticipate that over this next week, I am going to take my time, read them and learn about NICOLE. This might sound strange, but know it is good, I am also beginning to love myself. I am enjoying looking in the mirror. I am discerning that GOD is proud of me. I can see my angel, or angles doing High Fives in regards to my choices. AND can FEEL GOD'S love, honestly for the first time in my life in these last few months/weeks. Hey, I have been saved for over 30years. One posting in my diary/journal was about 5 months after I was saved, and my entry was this: Wednesday July 5th 1978 Yesterday I was born again. IT FEELS WONDERFUL to know I am going to heaven. Ye who believes on the Son hath everlasting life and I believe Amen YES! PRAISE THE LORD!! So this is a short posting, and I declare that this season I have come into, I am going to learn what my characteristics of NICOLE NANETTE are and what are not and let those go. What qualities that I have are on GOD'S CANVAS, and what are not and purge them. Never felt these feelings ever. Funny thing is, who is going to stay in my life and who will fly south. Most of my friends, honestly have left me, not knowing really what to do with me as I went and am going through such a deep, DEEP HEALING. It's my husband who has seen it all, and even I wasn't there to see what manifestations that I won't even share. So he is my best friend, next to ABBA. I love you CHARLIE!
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Friday, November 8, 2013
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Don't give up (like i have done many a time).............. Earlier today my son CHUCK RAMIREZ, told me he was going on his hike that he frequently goes on. I asked if he would drop me off at Mission Trails Regional Park, and come pick me up when he would be done with his hike. TO make a long story short, I went with Charles (my son), and started hiking up that mountain. It was hard, and i had to stop several times in the first 1/2 mile. By the time we got up to the 3/4 mile i had to stop and told Charles just to go on, and i would wait, and so he went up to the top of COWLES MOUNTAIN. After several minutes of standing still, I felt restored and chose to go another 100 feet or so. To again make this story shorter........... I kept my focus to the view directly in front of me. Before I knew it........ I MADE IT TO THE TOP!!!!! https://www.sandiego.gov/park-and-recreation/pdf/missiontrailstrailmap.pdf Those of you that know me, know most everything that happens to me, has more than just the physical act that it is. There is a spiritual side to this and honestly WHY i wanted to make it to the top. This is the tallest peak in our city. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cowles_Mountain So I declare I MADE IT TO THE TOP and have victory in JESUS NAME. Shalom to all who read this.. Last but not least is this............. I keep track of most birds i see every single day........ SO on this CLIMB up the mountain, I saw Ravens, (Not Crows), Red Tailed Hawk, Bushtits, Yellow Rumped Warblers, Bewicks Wren, Anna's Hummingbird, White Crowned Sparrow,MAYBE a western meadowlark,