So many think they are not like Job, for he lost so much and most of us haven't lost to that extent, well we think anyway. I certainly can relate and how many of us can, when our family and friends might tell us to either grow up, get with the program or even grow up! No one knows what " you" go through but you and even though it is hard, tough, even debilitating, GOD IS IN CONTROL!
I am 57 years of age and still pinch myself to see if I am really here. I was conceived in 1957, abandoned by parents, adopted and then molested most of my life before my adopted dad died, and never knew MOST of the traumas that have happened to me to this day. I have had the signs and symptoms of them, but not grasping the fact that they are signs and symptoms of the trauma, not a physical disease (btw, this is a KEY SECRET TO MOST DISEASES). So my name is Nicole and I have always loved, LOVED my name. Growing up no one, NO ONE else had this name! I learned it meant victorious one, Victory of the people, victorious warrior, etc. The verse that always was given was out of Job. Job 23...... be it 10, or 11. So i looked it up and the complete thought took 3 verses.
10 But he knows the way that I take;
when he has tried me, I shall come out as gold.
11 My foot has held fast to his steps;
I have kept his way and have not turned aside.
12 I have not departed from the commandment of his lips;
I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my portion of food.
Even then I thought, soooooooo, now i am like Job? uh huh............
Well months passed and I kept being drawn to Job, by church sermons, testimonies, just everyday situations that pointed to this book and man. Finally a day came, when I chose to read the entire book of Job in one sitting (well one day anyway), and what grabbed my spirit, soul, and body, was the last chapters of this book. Mostly I had known about how all he had was taken from him; his family couldn't even understand him, and his friends, well you read the book and see for yourself. Friends can be soooo.............. _____________. (you fill in the blank). Previously I had been even critical myself over Job's friends!
Now this time around I got to towards the end of the book and when I got to chapter 38, and realized even though so much catastrophe happened to this man of GOD, well GOD humbles Job right there in front of his friends and starts to speak " WHO ARE YOU JOB , AND WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I MADE THE EARTH? TELL ME IF YOU KNOW SO MUCH..................
and so for several chapters, as God speaks, Job shuts up and listens (not hears, but listens). So now until my next posting , I challenge you to read the entire book of JOB! Pray first and see what happens. We are in a time of such purging and God is going deeper than ever, DEEP into us that will let HIM. SHALOM THIS DAY...... See you soon!
- Introducing Nicole RamirezHello my name is Nicole and it mean victory of the people, victorious one, and it origin is from Greece.
I am a photographer, author, as well as an artist. This is my first posting here in my blog, and over the next season, i will share from several different subjects so as to encourage you. One goal I have and intend to accomplish is to share the trials, traumas, and just hard times that i have come through, that i made it this far and you can too.
So, let me start with as i said above.... My name is Nicole. I am adopted and found out as i was raised by my adoptive parents, that my name was given to my by my biological dad. I was born in the 50's, and even though now in the 21st century, when i was growing up there was not one other Nicole i even met, heard of, be it in my life or on television. I never heard the name Nicole anywhere at all.
I was raised by Mr & Mrs Stickler, my adoptive parents, and they adopted another kid, this time a boy, and now i had a brother. We moved ever so much and so i never really got established in a neighborhood, all but for once.
My dad acquired cancer and died of it when i was 11. We moved back to Pennsylvania, so he could say goodbye to his blood family before he died. After his death we came back to California, and settled in
San Diego County, the home of my moms sister. We settled in an rural area of the Eastern County, and we stayed in one place, and it was nice to go to one school my entire high school years.
Of course i saw some cute looking guys, and sorta would follow them around. Another guy became aware of me, especially as i started to go to sports events to take pictures. I decided to take photography, for i needed credits to graduate, and that seemed different and maybe fun. By the end of my junior year, i started dating this guy who was watching me. He graduated that year and 2 years later i then graduated. He then moved and got his own apartment and i invited myself to move in. Within several months a very good friend of mine, had a dream, and because of the dream, she begged me to watch Billy Graham crusade that weekend on the t.v. (i had gone to his crusades growing up, and watched his crusades lots of times). So the weekend came and it was December of 1977. I watched the crusade and ended up curled up on the floor crying at the end when the invitation to accept Christ was given. Well that very night, i couldn't go to bed with my boyfriend, i just KNEW it was not good anymore. So i slept in the walk in closet. Within the next week, i moved home with my mom. (she now only had a one bedroom apartment, and my brother had left home). Within several months my boyfriend whose name was Charles, well he came to invite me out on a date once again, and shared with me he was saved now. Within 5 months i was engaged, and we got married in June 1979.
I got pregnant nearly immediately and had a son in June of 1980 and named him charles as well. I now called my husband Charlie. The next 20 years were basically 2 more kids, who were boys, and several apartments too.
In 2002 my mom died, and within a year i started looking for my birth mom. It was (I think) in 2005 that i found my birth dad. I found him for i had always known we had the new paper article in which it was shared the details of my situation..........
Details will be given in the next posting on my blog...........