Saturday, November 30, 2013
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger~~~
What doesn't kill you makes your stronger! And though I have heard that for years, it is nearly indescribable until you experience it.
I had a HORRIBLE thanksgiving, BUT it took me 24 hours to realized, GOD allowed it, for HE KNEW I would make it through and not give up.
I have been a blubbering mess ever since. This season, my emotions have escalated beyond fathomable depth/intensity. So as I heard this
hymn this am, i melted again. Ready? IN CHRIST ALONE and don't just hear, sing, the words, but Declare and Proclaim them! The link
below (Click to listen to the song and here are the Lyrics) Shalom
In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Letting God love you..............
WOW, another WOW! Just going deeper with ABBA. I have never felt so good, and that is so interesting to me.... FOR the warfare this season has been tremendous in certain ways. Each of has different battles, and so often it is in areas that we as of yet don't have victory in yet: BUT WILL as we don't give up. Basically I am FEELING, EXPERIENCING everything from LOVE to fear. What I thought would be healing isn't for most of my life I have given, GIVEN. Be it a vase of flowers to a meal to others. This season I am FEELING, EXPERIENCING Love and though I have known the characteristics (from I Corinthians 13), of love, I now feel them and have accepted them. God is having me not give as much as receive. So whatever you haven't grasped, well may this be the season that you do grasp it, and receive it. Also I abhor waiting for most anything. As far back as I can remember, stuff has been promised to me, and though one will promise it to me (from birth parents, to acquaintances, family members, employees etc); well words have never met much to me.
God created by speaking it into existence. SO many of us speak it, and it comes to pass. May we pay attention to those words we speak. Last week I said, "that was smart Nicole", which was negative and I knew by the Holy Spirit, that saying that was not good and even based by a spirit of negativity. So I prayed against that spirit, and now am being aware of what I say and careful what I say. WOW, if we would be aware of what we say, we could have much less illness and so much more ugh! In closing, ask the Lord (and get a pencil and paper ready to write down what comes into you brain), Lord show me to focus on whatsoever things are pure (philippians 4:8). We will walk and live in such a better place when we do this.... SHALOM
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Today is/was nearly INDESCRIBABLE!!!
I have been coming through such a season. One which has been gradual in my healing. God is ever so much more clever than us, and HE knew that my healing needed/needs to be slow, precise, thorough, and ever so much more than I can ever imagine. He made me with such anointing for His Creation, be it people, but ever so much our planet. There have been times of being blessed by the Red Crowned Parrots here in our County. They fly by the hundreds directly over my home even. They have sat on the wires above and eaten fruit. Lots of others special gifts HE has given, and they almost all have been that which is around me just COMING ALIVE.
This week we have had a storm come through and dump some rain, and that was good. I had some errands to do today and upon getting home, got some dishes done and made some coffee. AND THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went outside to see if my cat needed some food and I was dumbfounded at what I felt and saw to the west. The sun was getting read to set and you could see the beauty of the brightness of it. I knew the storm was over. Be it spiritual or physical. (of course there will more storms, but the current one is over). The clouds were beginning to part. I was delighted, so I shared on Facebook, what I saw and felt. Well I HAD to outside again and watch it, and this time took my camera. I climbed upon my makeshift ladder and got a couple of pictures and was doubly delighted in what I was experiencing. The clouds like a blanket was coming east and the sky was sooooooo blue. Then I noticed over my pergola, a beautiful blue morning glory in full bloom! So I got some wonderful images. I came back in the house and uploaded the pictures. Well I went outside AGAIN, and was totally blown away for what I NOW SAW. I felt like I was in heaven (I can only imagine). I got some more pictures and upon looking to the east it was nearly black with storm clouds, but the west was totally cloudless. I kept hearing the song by Kim Walker HOW HE LOVES US and was singing it, not realizing that the Holy Spirit was singing it, or well I just knew God was ministering that song all over, in, and through me. I then took MORE pictures and then felt/knew/discerned to be quiet and just watch/listen. So I did for several minutes and then I heard TAPS. You know the song about when someone dies. I stayed there for several more minutes........... Finally came in for the color was gone out of the sky. I share this link,
for I went and learned the History of Taps.
Monday, November 18, 2013
Who am I?
Honestly, I don't even know where to start this post............. Well, let's start with the sunrise.
As the sun rose, I reflected on the night which was a breakthrough for me, and this is why! For several
years I have awoken several times nearly EVERY NIGHT. I rarely sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. So I
tend to go to bed early 8am or before, and get up oh maybe at 6- 8 am. In bed for maybe 10-12 hours and
get maybe 6 hours of sleep. Of course there were many a night it was only about 4 hours or so.
Now I love (for whatever reason) to make lists. I love to check things of a list as well. Soooo, as I got
out my bird field guide, I was looking up a bird and ran across the check off list I have used in the back
and just pondered, browsed the list of winged beauty that I had gotten to see one or more times. SOOO,
that led to getting out my diaries of the years past to see what birds I saw when visiting other states,
and that led to finding the FIRST journal/diary I started back in 1977 when I got saved. I started reading
and saw the NICOLE (Nikki) back then. I read how much I loved my mom. Honestly in these last years, I keep
reflecting on how much I didn't love her. So now am in a quandary. Yes I really did love her, but yes, could
have done better at showing it. I have nearly 2 dozen journals and anticipate that over this next week, I am
going to take my time, read them and learn about NICOLE. This might sound strange, but know it is good, I am
also beginning to love myself. I am enjoying looking in the mirror. I am discerning that GOD is proud of me.
I can see my angel, or angles doing High Fives in regards to my choices. AND can FEEL GOD'S love, honestly
for the first time in my life in these last few months/weeks. Hey, I have been saved for over 30years.
One posting in my diary/journal was about 5 months after I was saved, and my entry was this:
Wednesday July 5th 1978
Yesterday I was born again. IT FEELS WONDERFUL to know I am going to heaven. Ye who believes on the Son hath
everlasting life and I believe Amen YES! PRAISE THE LORD!!
So this is a short posting, and I declare that this season I have come into, I am going to learn what my
characteristics of NICOLE NANETTE are and what are not and let those go. What qualities that I have are on
GOD'S CANVAS, and what are not and purge them. Never felt these feelings ever. Funny thing is, who is going
to stay in my life and who will fly south. Most of my friends, honestly have left me, not knowing really
what to do with me as I went and am going through such a deep, DEEP HEALING.
It's my husband who has seen it all, and even I wasn't there to see what manifestations that I won't even
share. So he is my best friend, next to ABBA. I love you CHARLIE!
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